refreshed and revitalized

a few weeks ago i received this sweet and thoughtful gift in the mail from my bet. it's funny how your best friends know what you need to hear even though they may live hundreds and even thousands of miles away. after having a big girl job and a big girl life for a few months, i am amazed at how much my heart is refreshed and revitalized when i get something like this....

Ticket for one please!

Cooking for one...harder than one would think. Although I am loving this personal-size-just-right-warm chocolate chip cookie...mmmmm.

Lately I have been learning a lot about doing things for just one person. Some things come easier than others like going to bed when I want...eating when I want...doing what I want; however, cooking for one...visiting churches alone...eating alone gets old and often lonely.

I keep reminding myself that this is a good and even great time of life! God has been teaching me to find joys in every season of my life, and this season is no different. I do find joy in living with an awesome roommate, working in a job I love, eating up every moment I have with my Sylvia (niece) and basking in all of the vibrant fall colors. I do have joy and fulfilling joy at that, but those feelings often hibernate.

I have found that finding satisfaction in God everyday takes practice and discipline. I'm far from perfect, and learning this might take a few more personal sized-just-right-warm chocolate chip cookies...

...bring it on.

So.....

I am a perpetual procrastinator. Not on everything though...mostly I put off things that take too much of my valuable time (sarcasm), things that scare me, things that make me uncomfortable, blah blah blah. I don't like that I procrastinate because the whole time i'm thinking about every little thing that needs to be done. i guess i get overwhelmed and then shut out everything! not helpful i know. the purpose of this post is to say that there will hopefully be more interesting posts to follow very soon!

new roots

wow. here we go. kansas city....check. apartment...check. roommate...check. scared...check. freaked out about living in a huge city...check. gotten lost already....check. gotten lost already in a really bad part of town...check.  job...? friends...? church...?

so after growing up in a small town in the middle of kansas for my whole life, I am now in the big city. i feel kind of like a country mouse...a little bit like ratatouille minus the france part. i know this part of my life will be exciting, challenging, growing and wonderful, but it's hard to see the forest through the trees (i think that's how the saying goes). i know God has called me to this place for a reason, and i thought that reason was nursing school, but after that fell through i really don't know what to expect.

God has a knack for keeping me guessing about most everything in my life. i like surprises, but not the kinds of surprises that deal with things that actually matter. it's hard to feel rooted when there's nothing to root into. it's hard to trust God with my life when i don't know what my life looks like now in this new chapter.

crazy first post huh? but this is where i'm sitting right now. confused, excited, lost, eager, and strangely at peace with it all.